26 May 2009

Still

My grandpa died today.

And even though I knew it was coming,
I'm still hurting.

And even though he lived a long and wonderful life,
I'm still angry.

And even though I'm glad he's no longer in pain,
I'm still selfish and want him here with us.

And even though we spent most of the weekend with him,
I'm still missing him already.

And even though I feel like I should be moving and doing ...
I'm still.

13 comments:

  1. I am very sorry for your loss.

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  2. So sorry for your loss. I still miss my Grandpa every day and he died 9 years ago. But the pain is gone, replaced with cherished memories. I hope you find them too.

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  3. I'm so sorry to hear that. I know that death is a part of life, but that doesn't make it suck any less.

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  4. Death is the worst. I know how it feels to grieve and it truly is one of the worst pains. Please take care of yourself and allow yourself to grieve. I'm so sorry you're hurting and that your grandpa is gone.

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  5. Heh. Rassles, you made me laugh. Because that sounds like what my grandpa would have said. Thanks for that.

    And thanks everybody for your condolences. You're very kind to leave them.

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  6. I'm sorry for your loss.

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  7. more great writing.

    hang in there.

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  8. Sorry for your loss - I was just catching up on your recent posts. How awesome to have a Trek lovin' Grampa. I didn't get a chance to know either of mine, so I'm envious. My thoughts are with you...

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  9. Add me to the chorus of sorries.

    It's never, ever easy.

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